Monday, August 22, 2011
Sometimes I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. And sometimes I am so sad I don't even want to get out of bed.
Sometimes I want to do all I can to please... and sometimes I wonder why I even bother. Because sometimes I can't seem to do anything right. And sometimes certain people make me feel so bad... that I just want to disappear. Forever.
Sometimes I feel like I have to keep up a front. And sometimes I feel like it's not even worth the effort to fake it.
Sometimes I wonder if real, true friends even exist. Sometimes I think a friend is someone who is nice as long they can manipulate you, use you, or control you. Sometimes I think the worst one is the finger pointing "friend" who plays the "holy" card.. another way to manipulate!!
Sometimes I think bad thoughts. And sometimes I dream as a child would dream. Sometimes I want to move far away from anyone who ever knew me, and forget my own name.