Today is better. No ugliness, no fighting, no ..... feeling that the devil is living in my home. I sprinkled holy water and blessed salt and prayed through a certain section of the house, and begged prayers from one and all. To say that is has helped is an understatement. Today I am doing it again, and this time I'm getting the entire house. I've also taken to adding blessed salt (just a pinch) to all of our food, and a drop of holy water to each pitcher of tea or whatever drink I make. The most problematic part of the house is void of a crucifix... that will be changing asap. I had a Medjugorje holy water font in there before, but mysteriously, it "broke". Hmmm. I will get small crucifixes, get them blessed, and am putting them WAY UP HIGH over the door. I aim to do that to every door of the house. Including our front and back doors. Which leads me to the question, do I put them up on the inside over the door, or outside, over the door? I'm a bit confuddled on that point.
Our parish is having masses at 7:15 and at noon, with confessions before each. I may actually try to make that early one. (which will truly be an act of God if I can make it there that early!)
So today I did a bit of shopping... picking up some Lent staples, such as canned tuna, and ingredients for a few, easy to prepare meatless comfort food meals that don't include beans. (I have a shelf full of beans already!) With my non-Catholic husband, who dutifully is meatless with us, I try to make things he likes so it is easier on him.
So today I get out my purple candle holder... dusting off and redecorating my little alter table, (an old pie safe). Lent, lent, bring on Lent!! How I cannot wait!! The ashes, the incense, the immersion in prayers and readings... the fasting and abstinence... the smallness of us and the bigness of God. I feel I must make haste... and clean like Jesus is coming over (physically) for a visit! I want to put away the distractions... but can I do it? Will I make an effort to do this every day? Will it last?
I have been such a fickle Catholic... I've been hit and miss at mass for about a year now... some days I flat out did not want to go... and then at the end of the day, I felt a sadness that I didn't. Some days I just felt too overwhelmed or tired or drained to go... it's been a struggle... and I know that it was the devil giving me excuses in my ear to use and to say, and reminding me of sadness and frailties and so forth. Old Smut Face has been busy. And I want, with all of my heart, to TOTALLY tick him off. :) I think embracing Lent is a good place to start.