Saturday, March 23, 2013
Purpose to Please God... Not Others
Yesterday I blogged about my curse. The curse of being a tender-hearted, sensitive person who "needs to get a grip" and "cries over everything". I have thought about it... and I know God made me a softie for a reason. I don't know what His reason was/is. But if it pleases Him, who am I to argue? But it sure does make things hard sometimes though! I guess we all have our cross to bear.
A friend of mine stated yesterday on her facebook wall that "everything she does is 'wrong'". I am sorry that someone made her feel that way. She's an awesome person, and she does not deserve that.
I am certain it was more than one person who hurt her. Facebook, I swear, is one great big drama-fest. Many times I have considered just deleting my account and forgetting about it. I get tired of posting things (that I think is just something innocent) and that makes 'certain (obviously very bored) people' think that this is a great reason to argue with or attack me..publicly of course... or even worse, using what I post to make fun of me and spread their ugly embellished comments to others... all behind my back. Again. There are certain people in our lives that any of us SHOULD be able to trust, well... some of them you just CAN'T trust and probably never will. That sounds bad but that is the truth. And let's face it. There are some who really, really think that the world revolves around them, so unless they are discussing how awesome they 'think' that they are, then they'd just as soon not even bother to converse at all. Which, I have to tell you, would be perfectly fine with me. So yeah... I don't post a lot any more.. and nothing personal if I can help it. I'd rather just stay in my 'bubble'. :(
It stinks to feel like you're constantly disappointing people for not being a certain way. I try and remember that as long as I am striving to please God, and that I am being the best wife and mom I can be, than that is ALL that matters. But you know, sometimes it's hard when other people think you're screwed up as Hogan's Goat. *laughs* I guess it wouldn't be so hard if I weren't such a people pleaser to go with everything else. Too friendly. Too trusting. Too easily fooled. Too Sensitive... *sighs*....
Sensitive and screwed up. That's me. But God loves me anyway. *big grin*