Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Lowly am I


Lowly am I.
Jesus is the Son, and I want so much to have His Light Shine down upon me, who deserves nothing.
How I desire His Light, His goodness!

His Mercy is the only thing sustaining me.

My mouth cannot find the words to convey to Him, 
all the things my heart wants Him to know.
But He knows anyway.  

My weakness, frailty, and miserably poor spirit shame me.
I am unworthy.  Pathetic.  And ashamed.

Demons attack my family, and my heart.  
My courage and strength fail me.  My eyes, ears, and very thoughts deceive me. 
The demons even attack through family and friends sometimes.
It is painful.  I feel utterly alone, except for Him.

He alone, my heart clings to, even through my unfaithfulness to Him through my thoughts and deeds.
How miserable I am.  
Why do I ignore the One who has never ignored me?

Lowly, I am.  Deserving to be crushed.  Mind, body, and soul for my sinfulness.  
My wretchedness.  
My pride.  

His Infinite Mercy is to great to fathom.   
I am grateful He loves despite all I lack, have never and can never be.
The King and the Rock and the Great One of all ages.  
Of the Universe.
I am but a drop of water in the ocean.  A grain of sand on a beach.  THAT insignificant.
So why should He care for me?  
How can I even begin to show Him how I love Him in return?
My wretchedness.. grief.. and woefulness distress me so much... I know not where to even begin.
I am always... truly... gratefully... at His Mercy.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Catholic Tea Party Hippie: The Hippie in Me

Catholic Tea Party Hippie: The Hippie in Me: You are probably wondering what the heck I'm talking about when I say that I am a conservative Catholic Tea Party hippie, right? For starter...

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Treats for Wheeters

Two weeks ago, after our homeschool group meeting (that we just started last month, and will post about later), my eldest daughter Amy decided that our two guinea pigs, Alphonse and Phoebe, needed some homemade treats.

I was a bit concerned, as I remember well when she attempted to make Sea Salt Ice Cream... and didn't measure the salt.  (completely inedible), however, she has mastered making spaghetti with sauce, and a few other things and is coming right along in the kitchen.   Besides, I considered the fact that I doubt the pets tastes are all that discriminating.  LOL

So, she started making dough for "the wheeters".  Yes, I know it's "wheek".  But we say, "wheet".    Before, when we had our guinea pig Wilbur, we used to call him "Wee Wheety Wilbur"... and thought ourselves quite funny. :)

So Amy made these treats... and I have to say, they looked like dried animal droppings.  LOL   However, the "piggies" LOVED them, and since having one each they have shamelessly begged.   Hilarious.  So, for all you guinea pig owners out there, I reccommend you make some goodies for the wheeters (wheekers) in your life. 
:)


For Today..


As time passes, I find I am more and more wanting to hide away from the world.  I continue to lose people because they are 'bothered' by my faith.  I am content to 'hole up', and live in my own little world.. I can remind myself that "Those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter."    So, why does it bother me so much? 

I have lost "friends" because I will not support "gay marriage".   I don't CARE if someone is 'gay'.  I am not a gay 'basher'.  I just don't support this fake 'marriage' stuff.   Marriage is for one man and one woman only.  Two roosters don't make an egg.  Savvy?

The world seems increasingly liberal...  I don't think it actually 'is'... it's just that they seem to be the loudest.  Funny how we are so terribly 'intolerant' unless we agree with 'them'.  

I tried getting together with an old "friend" a few months ago.  She spent the first ten minutes of our 'visit' making restaurant reservations for her family and 'other' friends (in front of me), and then she and her 'perfect' son openly made fun of what I was wearing, to the point they were openly laughing at me... (long skirt and blouse), and then a while later proceeded to bash someone else, (a stranger at our church) for their unkempt appearance.  I was bothered by this...  so shut my mouth, and was polite, but quiet, on the way home.   She's hasn't said 'boo' to me since.  Which tells me she was not keen to see me anyway.   No worries.  I am aware that ship has sailed.  I'm over it.   

I am not a perfect person.  Not 'holy' enough.  Not 'tolerant' (apparently) enough, and I am certainly not without my flaws.   But why are my flaws so "wrong", but it seems others get a free pass on that?

And on top of everything else, I have someone who SERIOUSLY takes EVERYTHING and twists it.. I swear to you... things that have NOTHING to do with them.. and make it ALL about them.   To the point she is a manipulative screwball.  Unhinged.  Confrontational.  Mental.  Did I mention manipulative?   I have decided, though, that I am just "NOT" dealing with her again.  Period.  I've tried to be nice.  Kind.  I've tried being understanding.  I've listened to the crazy ranting.  I've tried to be sympathetic.  But the truth of the matter is that she is plain sucking me dry... sucking the very life out of me.  I am supposed to believe that when she does not say 'boo' to me for two years at a stretch, suddenly I "hate" her, (huh?) and I prevent her from being healthy.  (all because when she was on a freak-out rant, I attempted to explain that no one was attacking her).. but since she had her mind made up, this made me a hate-filled evil person.   Whatever.   I can't deal with her "crazy" anymore.   God knows I've tried.

So today I will plan for our homeschool club tomorrow here, and turn in my daughter's attendance for our umbrella school.  We'll make some homemade doggie biscuits, and enjoy our day.  Life inside our bubble is good. :)

Friday, August 17, 2012

Reasons I Unschool


Reasons I Unschool

Homeschooling isn't something we do.  It's our lifestyle. Learning is part of everything, every day.  We look up everything, study anything, and pursue whatever is interesting at THAT moment.  My daughter is free to follow her bliss. :)

We are not confined to a classroom.  Living life happens everywhere.  We learn everywhere, every day, in every situation.  The best lessons are the ones that happen when you're not looking for them. :)  Though observing, playing, and living.  All with your loved ones!

We spend more time together as a family.   

Her learning is more effective.. she can learn in ways that work for HER!!

No having classmates who are bad influences.

She does things for her own internal satisfaction rather than for external rewards. (Stickers?!  Stars?! Are they KIDDING ME?!)

She doesn't do "just enough" to "squeak by" and "please" a teacher.  She is her own judge of the quality of all she does. 

She's more willing to take risks and be creative since there's no worry about being embarrassed in front of others.

She's more confident since she is not subject to constant fear of criticism from other students and teachers. 

Social interactions will be by choice and based on common interests.  

Her friends are more varied, not who just happens to be born the same year!

She doesn't have feel that grades or test scores is some sort of competition with peers... so ending up either conceited towards others, (I'm smarter because I got an A), or feeling inferior (I didn't do as well) to others.  Neither is good!   

She spends her time and energy on activities that SHE thinks are worthwhile.  

She will not learn to "be OF the world", "but will, instead, be "set apart" and value morals and love more than power and money. 

She doesn't have to wait until she is grown to begin to seriously explore her passions; she can start living NOW.  

My children who learn "different" don't have to be subjected to the constant and merciless teasing, taunting, and bullying.

She is encouraged to reach her full potential and not be limited by the use of "cookie cutter" methods used in schools.  

Religious and special family days can be planned and celebrated.  :)  

She doesn't have to wait for her 2 seconds with an overworked teacher to grade and return her work... and then even later to find out if she even understood it.  What rot!

Testing is optional.   

Family's values are part of every day life... she can learn them by seeing and doing in REAL LIFE. 

More Field trips!! Which are much more enjoyable (and productive) when not with a large noisy distracting group.  (that moves at a snails pace and misses half the good stuff!)

Volunteering//mass can be included in the regular schedule.  Helping others is important in a child's development and can be a great learning experience!   

Scheduling can be flexible.  Go on trips//field trips during less busy times.  The freedom allows you to travel and do  and go more... which is a wonderful learning experience!

She is free to learn subjects not usually taught in school.  

Free to read at home! :)  No distractions like at school!

We can go outside all we want!!  Way more healthy than spending most weekdays indoors in a crowded, and often overheated, classroom.

Spending more time out-of-doors results in feeling more in touch with the changing of the seasons and with the small and often overlooked miracles of nature. 

No government controlled school.  Blech!  

Children learn to help more with household chores, developing a sense of personal responsibility.  

Children learn life skills, such as cooking, in a natural way, by spending time with adults who are engaged in those activities. 

More time spent on household responsibilities strengthens family bonds because people become more committed to things they have invested in (in this case, by working for/with the family). 

Time is available for other things... like art or music. Handcrafts. Gardening.  This leads to a richer, happier life. :)

She won't have to feel like a passive recipient of whatever the school/teacher dishes out.. she chooses!!

She learns to seek out answers to her questions herself, and learn from MANY different sources, rather than depending on the teacher to (hopefully) give the right answer. 

No bullies.  (aside from her sister) :)

No sitting under florescent lights for hours doing monotonous paperwork.  (What the heck does busy work teach?  Anything?)  On the level as everyone else... if you're a quick learner, too bad.  You have to wait for the rest of the class.  If you have a learning disability, you are under constant stress to "keep up".  Like it's a RACE.  

No moving to the sound of a bell.  Like a lab rat. :(

Not having to ask permission//wait in line for attention//help with a lesson//for food// for permission to relieve yourself.  

NO Political indoctrination.

At home, you're free to practice your faith.  At school you're not free to be a Catholic/Christian.  You can't mention it, or be caught doing anything perceived as 'religious'.

No peer pressure. Sex, drugs, indecency, immoral dress, language and behavior.  Instead, learning in a peaceful, quiet home where you are loved, accepted, and treasured! 

No forced acceptance of perversion and 'lifestyle' choice. No free rubbers, abortions, books on "Heather has 2 mommies" and so forth.  No "changed" liberal textbooks, teaching, or views.  (Sorry.. we didn't come from MONKEYS!)

At home, I can discuss "blossoming" with her.. in school she would get "sex ed". 

No disgusting school food she has to wait in line for, and then by the time she gets it and gets to a table, she has five minutes to gulp this garbage down.

No having to "dress out" for PE.  No having to undress in front of others so that you are gawked at and criticized.

She is free to play outside all she wants, and using her imagination.. instead of "dressing out" and then made to line up in the heat to do "jumping jacks" with 50 other students.  Yuck.


Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Caitlin-2-Convent... Entering Religious Life...

This young lady is entering the Convent in two weeks... and she needs our help and prayers.  Please take a moment to read her story.... and PLEASE SHARE!!  Thank you and God Bless!


Caitlin2Convent : Clarity for the Wary: Good afternoon! And Thanks for coming! One of you approached me wondering how I could have such a large amount of debt, and another questio...

Monday, August 6, 2012

Veggie Girl?


When I was about 20 years old, I decided to stop eating meat.  I still had eggs, (sparingly), and cheese, and once in a blue moon I would eat a few shrimp, but that was the extent of it.  When I became pregnant with my first child at age 25, the meat cravings began, and I started eating it again.

Since then, I, (for about 2 years between the ages of about 38 to 40), gave up all pork and shellfish.  That didn't last either.  Though, I know in my heart of hearts that both are very bad for you.  

Most years I give up meat for the entire 40 days of Lent.  Some years this was not difficult.  Some years, it's been hard.

About two (I think) years ago, we started doing Meatless Fridays.  As a convert to our Catholic faith, I somehow missed the boat on this.  Though a lot of Catholics no longer "do" meatless Fridays... for some reason they think it's no longer a "requirement".   I looked in the Catechism... we 'are' supposed to still be giving up 'something' on Fridays.  Because every single Friday is like a 'little' Good Friday.  So even if you still want to eat meat on a Friday, at least deny yourself 'something', or, say some extra prayers.  Not everything has to be 'taken away' or 'denied'. You can always 'add' to prayers, works of mercy, and so forth. :)  Anyway...

I've been buying a lot of natural foods. Quinoa, muesli, oat groats, granola, lentils, peas, and beans. Bulgar.  Barley.  The kids and I have been eating these things off and on.  But I am ready to 'step it up'.  

About two days ago, I was watching a video on youtube, and the couple were making lentil soup for themselves.  My hippie tastebuds started drooling and craving, and I bought 2 sacks of lentils.  Hubby asked about them, and I told him about the video and that I wanted to make some lentil soup.  He admitted he too, likes lentil soup.  Whaaaaat?   Wow.  News to me!!  Little comments like this give me hope.  LOL

Last night the four of us were watching television.  The girls and I got up and got a yogurt and some granola.  Hubby watched us, and then got himself some.  My. Husband. Ate. Granola.  *shock*  And even more shocking, was his, "Hey, this stuff is GOOD."  Wow.  Just.. WOW!  I can't believe it! :)  *does happy dance*  There is hope for us yet!

 I am going to make the lentil soup today I think.  I'm craving it.  I have several bags of dried beans and so forth in the pantry, as well as frozen peas.  So I have quite the supply.  My thinking is this:  I am going to 'try' and just be meatless during the week.  Not every day.  Just, say, Monday through Friday.  I may have days when I eat a little... I'm not going to beat myself up about it.  I would LIKE to say I was also giving up all refined flours and sugars and caffeine AND dairy.  But no.. I am just not 'there' yet.  Though I am limiting my refined flours and sugars, and I believe that is a good start.  Such as, yesterday I only had a half cup of coffee, and then fruit water all day.  Finally last night I had two glasses of green tea with honey.   Not exactly great but better than guzzling sweet tea or Cocola all day long!

Rome wasn't built in a day.  And all of us are works in progress.  In my continued efforts for our family to eat better, and more healthy... this 'has' to start with me.